Time Changes Things

Time. Time is crucial. I’ve rushed so many things, becoming impatient because I just knew what I envisioned was the best way things could be. But that was not the case. When you don’t get what you want, be patient. There is a reason you don’t have it. It may not even be possible to…

Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest

Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,…

How do writers write everyday?

I guess they just start writing. Like I am now, as I’m on this RedLine train. I have another job. Yay! I got fired in October… I begged God for a break and prayed for a sign. I felt stuck there. I loved the money and the weekly pay, but I wanted to work outside….

Delicacies captured, Form waves of passion. In you, I see me. And now I see more.

Powerful Thinking, Powerful Thinking!

Hi, you guys! Today I did something powerful. Remember me wanting to be a better woman? If you don’t remember, here you go. Well, today I feel like I had a breakthrough, thanks to identifying my negative thought patterns. I mean I’m not acting like I’m healed, but I’m one step closer to figuring out…

Am I a Ruby?

I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completely…

Why Me

Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself are…

Sophia

That little bright eyed look you gave me this morning was everything. The way you stared at my curly, honey-brown weave was so adorable! Your eyes full of curiosity. Your mommy protectively watching how I’m interacting with you. Your cute pink jacket. Pure like you. Your whittle fat ankles. I wish I was a baby…

Am I a Woman?

A woman is not a girl. A woman was a girl. There is a big difference and I have a better sense of that since I turned twenty-six years old yesterday. I’ve had a week long vacation. ( yassssss 😎) I made a commitment to be more free and open during my vacation. It worked!…

I’ve decided my posts will be accounts of my everyday living. Maybe that’ll help me become a better writer, you know, keep the thoughts flowing and the words coming. I judge my writing so harshly that at times I forget to enjoy what I’m doing. I always feel like I’m writing an essay that will…

BATTLE

Everyday I fight a battle. A battle I fight against myself. A battle With my mind. Because all I can think about is you. This battle again, with My body. Because all it wants, is you. A battle with my heart. Because the only one I love, IS YOU.

So I’m back to the 9 to 5

I got a new job at another gas station. This is my second one. 😔  Not too happy about this. We all know that I hate cashiering and working in retail. I’m good at it, but it’s just not what I enjoy doing. I definitely failed myself these last few months, quite miserably actually. I…