Oceanic

I feel like a big ass ocean with words and thoughts as waves. Except they never reach the shore. No one knows the words and maybe I don’t know them either. I ONLY want to do what makes me happy and what makes me feel GOOD. The stress to be great, noticed, and different limitsContinue reading “Oceanic”

Time Changes Things

Time. Time is crucial. I’ve rushed so many things, becoming impatient because I just knew what I envisioned was the best way things could be. But that was not the case. When you don’t get what you want, be patient. There is a reason you don’t have it. It may not even be possible toContinue reading “Time Changes Things”

Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest

Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,Continue reading “Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest”

Powerful Thinking, Powerful Thinking!

Hi, you guys! Today I did something powerful. Remember me wanting to be a better woman? If you don’t remember, here you go. Well, today I feel like I had a breakthrough, thanks to identifying my negative thought patterns. I mean I’m not acting like I’m healed, but I’m one step closer to figuring outContinue reading “Powerful Thinking, Powerful Thinking!”

Am I a Ruby?

I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completelyContinue reading “Am I a Ruby?”

Why Me

Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself areContinue reading “Why Me”

Am I a Woman?

A woman is not a girl. A woman was a girl. There is a big difference and I have a better sense of that since I turned twenty-six years old yesterday. I’ve had a week long vacation. ( yassssss 😎) I made a commitment to be more free and open during my vacation. It worked!Continue reading “Am I a Woman?”

THOSE WHO ARE PERSISTENT.

Admittedly, I cannot remain steady in my ambition. I’m trying to beat this case of laziness that I’ve been fighting for, I don’t know, my whole life lol. What I’m sure it comes down to is balance, focus, and discipline. The question is “how do I maintain optimum levels of these things at least mostContinue reading “THOSE WHO ARE PERSISTENT.”