January 1, 2020

Setting my intentions for the month.

You should too.πŸ™‚

Today I hoped to watch the sunset. The first sunset of 2020 would have been a perfect way to begin the year.

Instead, I was at work. “Almost seeing” the sunset from my gas station window…

Tomorrow is a new day though.

I’ll try again for that sunset.

I’m writing right now because I don’t want to repeat last year’s mistakes.

I just want to constantly feel the fulfillment of trying harder.

Doing more than I know I can.

The New Year

the new year is among us all.
let us cheer!
let us rejoice!
lets drink and be merry.
or not…

here are some random things about the New Year that I’m excited about:

is Bill Gates closer to solving our energy crisis?

is Rihanna coming out with a new album?

will Beyonce have a concert that i can afford to go to?

will i start eating meat again?

how many strikes will CPS teachers go on this school year?

how much is arm surgery?

am i gonna lose more weight?

whats next for donald trump?

How will legalizing weed change things?

a bunch of other shit…

to be continued lol.

good night everybody ☺️☺️

PenelopeWild

Hey everybody,

I created PenelopeWild almost eight years ago. Though it hasn’t taken off the way I would have hoped, and I haven’t worked as hard as I feel I could and should have, Penelope is me, and I am it. So yeah, Penelope ain’t going nowhere…no time soon. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

Today begins the start of a new life for me and who ever else is along with me. I sat at home and cried even though there was nothing to cry about. The more I reflected, the more I realized that I wasn’t sad. I was stuck.

Stuck in patterns.

If Penelope is about evolving then it’s about time I change.

And so I am. Again.

This new life is all about starting over even when you feel as though you can’t.

Constantly being mindful.

Continuous evolving because that is the way of life. Of our lives.

Penelope.Wild.

The playful kid inside of you.

Gratefulness Check!

Every few days I find myself feeling ungrateful. Complaining, wishing things were better, etc.

I’ve come up with a few things that helps combat my ungrateful ness.

I ask myself a few questions.

Could your current problem be any worse?

What were you given before things got “bad”? What good thing happened recently?

Think of the random bad things that could happen to you…how would you feel?

I also reflect in these ways:

Listen to someone else vent and genuinely try to understand and sympathize and encourage them. This really helps. Take your mind off your problem for a moment and put your all into encouraging someone else. It has a boomerang effect.

I mentally separate my “good things” vs my “bad things”

I make a plan to combat or solve whatever has me feeling ungrateful, if I can’t think of a plan, I reach out to someone.

Last thing I do:

I remember the power of my mind. That this unfortunate thing that has me feeling this way is because of my choice of focus. I literally control my mood. I realize that I can change my focus, thus changing my mood.

Take a deep breath.

And another one.

You are stronger than your problems.

We will always have problems.

We will always be stronger than them too.

No Money, Mo Probelms

So much going on lately. I guess I saw it coming, and this is how I know that the Universe is teaching me a valuable lesson. I’m learning. Procrastination is a habit of the slothful. Perhaps the ones that are TOO hopeful. They somehow insist that they ALWAYS have time.

I’m praying hard for better days. When money will not be the source of my stress.

Hesitation Vs. Meditation

I began meditating in January of 2019. Thanks to my best friend, and this app that I always brag about: Eternal Sunshine

Unfortunately, I haven’t meditated in over two months. I’m sure I can blame my hesitation to meditate on all the events going on in my life, but I choose not to place blame today.

I just didn’t make enough time for self-care. It’s so easy to get caught up in the craziness of our lives.

As I was meditating this morning, I began to cry. I told myself, ” I am not my thoughts. I am not my body. I am not my emotions.” It felt so good to cry when no one was around. I just let everything out.

What’s beautiful about meditating is that it is communion with your soul. Not having that communion made me feel so alone and stressed.

I was constantly replaying negative situations and negative thoughts in my brain.

Everything felt out of order! No matter how much I cleaned, rearranged rooms in my apartment, etc.

By the way, I moved out my moms house finally! 😝😏

I’m shacking up! As my mommy would call it. πŸ˜‚ But who cares about your labels????? I’m more free than I’ve ever been…

On the other hand, being away from my mom makes things tough. She moved to Texas three months ago. Sometimes we would meditate together… God, I miss her face. Thank God I get to hear her voice everyday.

Anyway guys…

My goal and hopefully your goal for this week, is to set intentions and follow through; To routinely let go of stressful thoughts, and therefore “resetting” our perspective as often as we can.