Why Me

Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself are…

Am I a Woman?

A woman is not a girl. A woman was a girl. There is a big difference and I have a better sense of that since I turned twenty-six years old yesterday. I’ve had a week long vacation. ( yassssss 😎) I made a commitment to be more free and open during my vacation. It worked!…

Ugh!

I hate fucking up. I hate not being prepared. I hate being broke. I hate feeling irresponsible. I hate surprises. I hate that all this shit even matters to me. My brain is something I love and hate. 😫 I wish I could go inside my brain, take a huge eraser and just go away…

BATTLE

Everyday I fight a battle. A battle I fight against myself. A battle With my mind. Because all I can think about is you. This battle again, with My body. Because all it wants, is you. A battle with my heart. Because the only one I love, IS YOU.

Is It Really About The Journey?

They say it’s all about the journey.  The journey to where exactly?  Where am I headed? Is it all about the journey if you have no idea where you’re going?  Is there even a journey at all, when you have no idea where you’re going?  Today, I feel like the last few years of my…

Chapter 24

Yesterday was my 24th birthday.  24th. An age that makes me nervous. The number before 25!  Which is the age I’m supposed to have “everything together”. The thought of having everything together sends me to a dark place. Only because I know I’m so far away from achieving that.  I’m reminded of how often I’ve failed…