Blue.

I used to hate the color blue. Made me uncomfortable and I didn’t understand it. I couldn’t feel it. Now it means more to me than a color. It’s a process. Sometimes a state of being. A feeling at times. It’s therapeutic. Calming. And I desire more. Every heart, every ocean, every word, everything. Goes…

Ugh!

I hate fucking up. I hate not being prepared. I hate being broke. I hate feeling irresponsible. I hate surprises. I hate that all this shit even matters to me. My brain is something I love and hate. šŸ˜« I wish I could go inside my brain, take a huge eraser and just go away…

Learning To Be GratefulĀ 

Gratefulness can take you a long way. It brings blessings to you and it drives curses away. Gratefulness is like planting seeds and expecting your garden to grow.  Gratefulness tell the universe “I love what I have, give me more.” An attitude of gratefulness creates a peaceful place despite the storm that may be happening…

Chapter 24

Yesterday was my 24th birthday.  24th. An age that makes me nervous. The number before 25!  Which is the age I’m supposed to have “everything together”. The thought of having everything together sends me to a dark place. Only because I know I’m so far away from achieving that.  I’m reminded of how often I’ve failed…

I Have To LeaveĀ 

I have to leave my head, my heart, my body, my house, my responsibilities.  Everything is so overwhelming. Even my family is too much to bare. I wish they would leave me be. I don’t even like talking to them. šŸ˜„ Of course I love them, but damn…. My birthday is a month away and…

My Emotional Issue

I have a bad habit of always thinking that there is always a flaw in my thinking, opinion, or choices. It’s a habit that I have possessed since I was 17, and I realized this habit this morning while sitting on the toilet. My recent argument with my boyfriend was a really bad one, and…