Extreme sensations

Maybe my third eye is opening, I’ve been so mindful lately. If I wrote every time I thought, my blog stats would be off the charts. I’ve been getting these extreme sensations. Mind pulling sensations. Maybe I’m vibrating, maybe I’m hallucinating.

Hesitation Vs. Meditation

I began meditating in January of 2019. Thanks to my best friend, and this app that I always brag about: Eternal Sunshine Unfortunately, I haven’t meditated in over two months. I’m sure I can blame my hesitation to meditate on all the events going on in my life, but I choose not to place blame…

Last Day At Circle K!!!

First job I actually quit!! Put my two weeks in and I’m soo proud of myself. Most times I just stop showing up haha…not funny. But πŸ˜† πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ I thought me leaving would be difficult, I also didn’t think I’d be so loved. Everyone was sad I was leaving. Even customers! So so sweet. I…

Oceanic

I feel like a big ass ocean with words and thoughts as waves. Except they never reach the shore. No one knows the words and maybe I don’t know them either. I ONLY want to do what makes me happy and what makes me feel GOOD. The stress to be great, noticed, and different limits…

Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest

Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,…

How do writers write everyday?

I guess they just start writing. Like I am now, as I’m on this RedLine train. I have another job. Yay! I got fired in October… I begged God for a break and prayed for a sign. I felt stuck there. I loved the money and the weekly pay, but I wanted to work outside….

Blue.

I used to hate the color blue. Made me uncomfortable and I didn’t understand it. I couldn’t feel it. Now it means more to me than a color. It’s a process. Sometimes a state of being. A feeling at times. It’s therapeutic. Calming. And I desire more. Every heart, every ocean, every word, everything. Goes…

Am I a Ruby?

I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completely…

Why Me

Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself are…

Ugh!

I hate fucking up. I hate not being prepared. I hate being broke. I hate feeling irresponsible. I hate surprises. I hate that all this shit even matters to me. My brain is something I love and hate. 😫 I wish I could go inside my brain, take a huge eraser and just go away…

HEY BIGHEAD

It’s not always a good idea to reach out to people you love or miss. Each time you reach out, you take a chance. The person you miss may react negatively to you or you could be unintentionally hurting them with your selfish need to have them at the moment. If you really love them,…

This!

Perfectly describes how I’ve felt since the breakup with my ex. Tore my entire world apart. But, dammit…I’m better now! God & ManHe was a storm. That’s the best way to describe him. He came into your life with the gale force passion, your whole heart was his from the moment you two decided this…