What hurt you? What fucked you up? Is there a hole still left inside of you? What could fill it? Do you feel like something is missing? Do you know what that is? Don’t you remember the lonely nights? The nights you spent crying? You’ve gotta remember all the time it took to even remotely…

Update!

Remember I was asking myself ”What‘s going on with me? “ Well, I’ve still been thinking and I haven’t been able to come up with anything other than what I already had. Bummer. In other news though 😊, I have promised myself that I would not stress over the dream anymore. There’s no point since…

What’s Going on With Me?

I keep having dreams that my boyfriend is cheating on me with a person close to me. Why do I keep having this dream? Will it come true? He doesn’t give me reason to believe that. IDK!! So, I’m left to believe that it’s my guilty conscious. Or maybe my insecurities that’s making me have…

HOW DID YOU LOSE YOUR VIRGINITY? DOES IT MATTER?

Eleven years ago I lost my virginity. Instead of retelling that awkward, but liberating story, I’ve decided to think about what else was going on in my life at that time and think hard about it too. I hope to learn something new about myself and answer the question: “does it matter how you lost…

On my way home

First day working alone without the supervision of my boss. Everything went wrong. 😂😂

Fuck fatigue.

Gave all my energy to Circle K today. Now I’m exhausted. I feel a burnout coming. I need more energy. I’m going to push through though. I promise.

Friends.

Sorry you couldn’t be there for me. It must have been so hard to you. You and your perfect life. So stressful. I hope you get another dog. I hope someone feels you how I do. I hope you find them. I hope they find you. You are still my best friend.

Extreme sensations

Maybe my third eye is opening, I’ve been so mindful lately. If I wrote every time I thought, my blog stats would be off the charts. I’ve been getting these extreme sensations. Mind pulling sensations. Maybe I’m vibrating, maybe I’m hallucinating.

Hesitation Vs. Meditation

I began meditating in January of 2019. Thanks to my best friend, and this app that I always brag about: Eternal Sunshine Unfortunately, I haven’t meditated in over two months. I’m sure I can blame my hesitation to meditate on all the events going on in my life, but I choose not to place blame…

Last Day At Circle K!!!

First job I actually quit!! Put my two weeks in and I’m soo proud of myself. Most times I just stop showing up haha…not funny. But 😆 🤷🏽‍♀️ I thought me leaving would be difficult, I also didn’t think I’d be so loved. Everyone was sad I was leaving. Even customers! So so sweet. I…

Oceanic

I feel like a big ass ocean with words and thoughts as waves. Except they never reach the shore. No one knows the words and maybe I don’t know them either. I ONLY want to do what makes me happy and what makes me feel GOOD. The stress to be great, noticed, and different limits…

Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest

Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,…