Gave all my energy to Circle K today. Now I’m exhausted. I feel a burnout coming. I need more energy. I’m going to push through though. I promise.
Category: Emotional
Friends.
Sorry you couldn’t be there for me. It must have been so hard to you. You and your perfect life. So stressful. I hope you get another dog. I hope someone feels you how I do. I hope you find them. I hope they find you. You are still my best friend.
Extreme sensations
Maybe my third eye is opening, I’ve been so mindful lately. If I wrote every time I thought, my blog stats would be off the charts. I’ve been getting these extreme sensations. Mind pulling sensations. Maybe I’m vibrating, maybe I’m hallucinating.
Hesitation Vs. Meditation
I began meditating in January of 2019. Thanks to my best friend, and this app that I always brag about: Eternal Sunshine Unfortunately, I haven’t meditated in over two months. I’m sure I can blame my hesitation to meditate on all the events going on in my life, but I choose not to place blame…
Last Day At Circle K!!!
First job I actually quit!! Put my two weeks in and I’m soo proud of myself. Most times I just stop showing up haha…not funny. But 😆 🤷🏽♀️ I thought me leaving would be difficult, I also didn’t think I’d be so loved. Everyone was sad I was leaving. Even customers! So so sweet. I…
Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest
Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,…
How do writers write everyday?
I guess they just start writing. Like I am now, as I’m on this RedLine train. I have another job. Yay! I got fired in October… I begged God for a break and prayed for a sign. I felt stuck there. I loved the money and the weekly pay, but I wanted to work outside….
Blue.
I used to hate the color blue. Made me uncomfortable and I didn’t understand it. I couldn’t feel it. Now it means more to me than a color. It’s a process. Sometimes a state of being. A feeling at times. It’s therapeutic. Calming. And I desire more. Every heart, every ocean, every word, everything. Goes…
Am I a Ruby?
I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completely…
Why Me
Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself are…
