I used to hate the color blue. Made me uncomfortable and I didn’t understand it. I couldn’t feel it. Now it means more to me than a color. It’s a process. Sometimes a state of being. A feeling at times. It’s therapeutic. Calming. And I desire more. Every heart, every ocean, every word, everything. Goes…
Category: Emotional
Am I a Ruby?
I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completely…
Why Me
Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself are…
HEY BIGHEAD
It’s not always a good idea to reach out to people you love or miss. Each time you reach out, you take a chance. The person you miss may react negatively to you or you could be unintentionally hurting them with your selfish need to have them at the moment. If you really love them,…
This!
Perfectly describes how I’ve felt since the breakup with my ex. Tore my entire world apart. But, dammit…I’m better now! God & ManHe was a storm. That’s the best way to describe him. He came into your life with the gale force passion, your whole heart was his from the moment you two decided this…
BATTLE
Everyday I fight a battle. A battle I fight against myself. A battle With my mind. Because all I can think about is you. This battle again, with My body. Because all it wants, is you. A battle with my heart. Because the only one I love, IS YOU.
Dreams of DeathÂ
I dreamt of death. Now, I am afraid of death. For reasons we all are. My dreams of death tell me that I don’t tell people what I should when they are alive. A characteristic of myself that shocks me. Imagine loving. Loving someone so deeply and truly that you are one. Where they…
Is It Really About The Journey?
They say it’s all about the journey. The journey to where exactly? Where am I headed? Is it all about the journey if you have no idea where you’re going? Is there even a journey at all, when you have no idea where you’re going? Today, I feel like the last few years of my…
Learning To Be GratefulÂ
Gratefulness can take you a long way. It brings blessings to you and it drives curses away. Gratefulness is like planting seeds and expecting your garden to grow. Gratefulness tell the universe “I love what I have, give me more.” An attitude of gratefulness creates a peaceful place despite the storm that may be happening…
Chapter 24
Yesterday was my 24th birthday. 24th. An age that makes me nervous. The number before 25! Which is the age I’m supposed to have “everything together”. The thought of having everything together sends me to a dark place. Only because I know I’m so far away from achieving that. I’m reminded of how often I’ve failed…
A handful of thought and feelings
There are times when I wish I my father hadn’t died. When I wish I could somehow go back in time and try to keep him alive. Maybe he had lost his will to live and had nothing to fight for. Maybe I could’ve been that person he would fight for. Maybe one day, I’ll…
