Time Changes Things

Time. Time is crucial. I’ve rushed so many things, becoming impatient because I just knew what I envisioned was the best way things could be. But that was not the case. When you don’t get what you want, be patient. There is a reason you don’t have it. It may not even be possible toContinue reading “Time Changes Things”

Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest

Why do I always go to the back of the bus? Why am I comfortable here? A lot of people are. I think it may be because I’m alone and can observe everyone freely. Anything but me being observed lol. Well here I am again. In the back. Typing away. Being more consistent. You know,Continue reading “Back of the Bus and the Need for Rest”

How do writers write everyday?

I guess they just start writing. Like I am now, as I’m on this RedLine train. I have another job. Yay! I got fired in October… I begged God for a break and prayed for a sign. I felt stuck there. I loved the money and the weekly pay, but I wanted to work outside.Continue reading “How do writers write everyday?”

Powerful Thinking, Powerful Thinking!

Hi, you guys! Today I did something powerful. Remember me wanting to be a better woman? If you don’t remember, here you go. Well, today I feel like I had a breakthrough, thanks to identifying my negative thought patterns. I mean I’m not acting like I’m healed, but I’m one step closer to figuring outContinue reading “Powerful Thinking, Powerful Thinking!”

Blue.

I used to hate the color blue. Made me uncomfortable and I didn’t understand it. I couldn’t feel it. Now it means more to me than a color. It’s a process. Sometimes a state of being. A feeling at times. It’s therapeutic. Calming. And I desire more. Every heart, every ocean, every word, everything. GoesContinue reading “Blue.”

Am I a Ruby?

I’m so fucking bored. Sometimes I just wanna jump in a lake… that’ll wake my ass up. I feel like I’m watching the same documentaries over and over, just to pass time. I feel like I drink, just to be in another reality. I smoke out of habit… What am I doing? I’m not completelyContinue reading “Am I a Ruby?”

Why Me

Abandoned. Unfinished. Tossed away. Like I’m nothing. Like I never mattered in the first place. Abandonment is a common feeling of mine. Probably the most felt negative emotion of mine. At the end of every relationship, I usually feel abandoned. I even sometimes feel abandoned by my friends. Which brings me to ask myself areContinue reading “Why Me”