Hesitation Vs. Meditation

I began meditating in January of 2019. Thanks to my best friend, and this app that I always brag about: Eternal Sunshine

Unfortunately, I haven’t meditated in over two months. I’m sure I can blame my hesitation to meditate on all the events going on in my life, but I choose not to place blame today.

I just didn’t make enough time for self-care. It’s so easy to get caught up in the craziness of our lives.

As I was meditating this morning, I began to cry. I told myself, ” I am not my thoughts. I am not my body. I am not my emotions.” It felt so good to cry when no one was around. I just let everything out.

What’s beautiful about meditating is that it is communion with your soul. Not having that communion made me feel so alone and stressed.

I was constantly replaying negative situations and negative thoughts in my brain.

Everything felt out of order! No matter how much I cleaned, rearranged rooms in my apartment, etc.

By the way, I moved out my moms house finally! 😝😏

I’m shacking up! As my mommy would call it. 😂 But who cares about your labels????? I’m more free than I’ve ever been…

On the other hand, being away from my mom makes things tough. She moved to Texas three months ago. Sometimes we would meditate together… God, I miss her face. Thank God I get to hear her voice everyday.

Anyway guys…

My goal and hopefully your goal for this week, is to set intentions and follow through; To routinely let go of stressful thoughts, and therefore “resetting” our perspective as often as we can.

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