Is It Really About The Journey?

They say it’s all about the journey. 

The journey to where exactly? 

Where am I headed?

Is it all about the journey if you have no idea where you’re going? 

Is there even a journey at all, when you have no idea where you’re going? 

Today, I feel like the last few years of my life have been pointless. 

It seems like I’ve been aimlessly roaming around.

There literally was no point. All I did was work countless jobs, stress about financial problems, and try to make my boyfriend happy. 

How long will I be in this rut?

I keep trying to make changes, but nothing sticks. 

I am ashamed.

It’s like I’m destined to fail. 

As the tears fall on my pillow I can’t help but be inspired. 

The burning desire inside me always surfaces. The fear I have of failing keeps me pushing. 

I know that I have to find the courage inside me to not give up. 

I know it’s possible to reach my potential. 

I am equipped with everything that I need to make my dreams come true. 

My goals are attainable. 

The problem is that I am my own worst enemy.

I’m thinking about going back to church, meditating, or therapy…

I cry when the thoughts are too much for me. 

I feel like I have no one to express myself to. 

This may not be true, but it’s like I don’t know how to go to a person and say, “hey can you listen to my problems for a second and give me unbiased, but truthful advice? 

Actually typing it now, it’s seems a lot easier to say than I thought.🤔

Yeah, maybe I’ll do that. 

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