Oh, brother. I’ve just realized that I have been a doormat for the last 12-14 years of my life. I’ve given people so much of myself and my time, and now I feel drained and used up.
I no longer want this for myself. I literally bust my ass for 8 hours almost every day of the week, only to come home and run errands for my family. I’m sick of it. I’m fed up. Everybody can kiss my ass.
I mean how am I gonna give to myself and make my life better when every time I have an hour of free time, I’m giving it to someone else?
Do I not know how to say no? Am I that weak of an individual? I know I can be hard on myself sometimes, but if I’m not hard on myself, who will be?
I’m going to lose my mind. I’m more bitter and resentful that I’ve ever been. I’m all out of kindness, it seems like. 😦