Oh, God!

I JUST had a dream so dreadful that I was in tears a few minutes after I woke.

As cold as it is, I literally sat on the toilet with the window open, the lights off, and sobbed.

I felt the pain I felt in the dream. I was betrayed by my boyfriend and my sister.

The things I saw with my own eyes; the way they tried to cover things up; the way that my sister showed no sororal concern and my boyfriend acted entitled and thought his actions were justified….

It’s like someone slid my insides down a butcher knife.

Absolutely no one in the dream was concerned about me. It was only a big deal to me. I was the only one who thought it was messed up that my boyfriend and sister became an item.

I could die thinking of it even now. It’s been 10 minutes since I’ve been awake. :'(:'(:'(

Weird thing though, my boyfriend in my dream looked nothing like my actual boyfriend. He looked like a boy who I dated before, but what was done to me hurt like my “true” bae did it to me.

My sister looked like my “true” sister.

I can’t, for the life of me, understand why I’ve been having these dreams (this the 2nd one like this). The first nightmare included my bae and my best friend. 😕

Ughhhhh!

Is someone going to betray me?
Am I gonna betray someone else?
Am I trusting the wrong people? Should I keep a closer eye on my bae?
Should I pull away from my boyfriend, friends, and family?

I know it was probably just a silly dream.
Just my subconscious fears maybe.
It just feels and felt so awful.

What should I do?

I feel so sad. I don’t even know if I should tell you guys to follow me on Instagram.

Dom.

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