Dreams of Death 

I dreamt of death.  Now, I am afraid of death. For reasons we all are.  My dreams of death tell me that I don’t tell people what I should when they are alive. A characteristic of myself that shocks me.  Imagine loving.   Loving someone so deeply and truly that you are one. Where they…

Is It Really About The Journey?

They say it’s all about the journey.  The journey to where exactly?  Where am I headed? Is it all about the journey if you have no idea where you’re going?  Is there even a journey at all, when you have no idea where you’re going?  Today, I feel like the last few years of my…

Learning To Be Grateful 

Gratefulness can take you a long way. It brings blessings to you and it drives curses away. Gratefulness is like planting seeds and expecting your garden to grow.  Gratefulness tell the universe “I love what I have, give me more.” An attitude of gratefulness creates a peaceful place despite the storm that may be happening…

2016 Is Over!!!😲

Wow.  Just 12 months ago I was complaining about my job, reflecting on if I really wanted to blog, as well as recognizing my desire to travel. As the new year creeps upon us, I reminisce about how excited I was at the moment, and how none of what I set out to do ACTUALLY happened….

3 Signs that You Need to Stop Loaning out Money

Hey y’all! Let’s get straight to it. 1. If you clicked this post, you probably should stop loaning out money. No one knows you better than you. 2. If you never get paid back, plus interest, you probably should stop loaning out money. When I loan out money to family, I charge $5 every week…

So I’m back to the 9 to 5

I got a new job at another gas station. This is my second one. 😔  Not too happy about this. We all know that I hate cashiering and working in retail. I’m good at it, but it’s just not what I enjoy doing. I definitely failed myself these last few months, quite miserably actually. I…

Chapter 24

Yesterday was my 24th birthday.  24th. An age that makes me nervous. The number before 25!  Which is the age I’m supposed to have “everything together”. The thought of having everything together sends me to a dark place. Only because I know I’m so far away from achieving that.  I’m reminded of how often I’ve failed…

I Have To Leave 

I have to leave my head, my heart, my body, my house, my responsibilities.  Everything is so overwhelming. Even my family is too much to bare. I wish they would leave me be. I don’t even like talking to them. 😥 Of course I love them, but damn…. My birthday is a month away and…

A handful of thought and feelings

There are times when I wish I my father hadn’t died. When I wish I could somehow go back in time and try to keep him alive. Maybe he had lost his will to live and had nothing to fight for. Maybe I could’ve been that person he would fight for.  Maybe one day, I’ll…

Despite What Society Teaches You, Men Can Control Themselves!

You know what irks my soul? (For those who don’t know what irks my soul means, it means grinds my gears, gets on my last nerve, or just bothers me.) 😏 Anyway, the thing that irks my soul is how society has painted men into nasty, immoral, filthy pigs not held accountable for their choices. …

I’m Okay With That

I’m not the girl who catches your attention because I’m not the girl with the perfect ass and the fake boobs. You’ll never ask for my number cus I’m just not the type that you would choose.  Ever. I don’t have long legs. They’re thick and full. And if I did you’d just find something…

My Emotional Issue

I have a bad habit of always thinking that there is always a flaw in my thinking, opinion, or choices. It’s a habit that I have possessed since I was 17, and I realized this habit this morning while sitting on the toilet. My recent argument with my boyfriend was a really bad one, and…