I’ve decided my posts will be accounts of my everyday living. Maybe that’ll help me become a better writer, you know, keep the thoughts flowing and the words coming. I judge my writing so harshly that at times I forget to enjoy what I’m doing. I always feel like I’m writing an essay that will…

HEY BIGHEAD

It’s not always a good idea to reach out to people you love or miss. Each time you reach out, you take a chance. The person you miss may react negatively to you or you could be unintentionally hurting them with your selfish need to have them at the moment. If you really love them,…

This!

Perfectly describes how I’ve felt since the breakup with my ex. Tore my entire world apart. But, dammit…I’m better now! God & ManHe was a storm. That’s the best way to describe him. He came into your life with the gale force passion, your whole heart was his from the moment you two decided this…

BATTLE

Everyday I fight a battle. A battle I fight against myself. A battle With my mind. Because all I can think about is you. This battle again, with My body. Because all it wants, is you. A battle with my heart. Because the only one I love, IS YOU.

Dreams of Death 

I dreamt of death.  Now, I am afraid of death. For reasons we all are.  My dreams of death tell me that I don’t tell people what I should when they are alive. A characteristic of myself that shocks me.  Imagine loving.   Loving someone so deeply and truly that you are one. Where they…

Is It Really About The Journey?

They say it’s all about the journey.  The journey to where exactly?  Where am I headed? Is it all about the journey if you have no idea where you’re going?  Is there even a journey at all, when you have no idea where you’re going?  Today, I feel like the last few years of my…

Learning To Be Grateful 

Gratefulness can take you a long way. It brings blessings to you and it drives curses away. Gratefulness is like planting seeds and expecting your garden to grow.  Gratefulness tell the universe “I love what I have, give me more.” An attitude of gratefulness creates a peaceful place despite the storm that may be happening…

2016 Is Over!!!😲

Wow.  Just 12 months ago I was complaining about my job, reflecting on if I really wanted to blog, as well as recognizing my desire to travel. As the new year creeps upon us, I reminisce about how excited I was at the moment, and how none of what I set out to do ACTUALLY happened….

3 Signs that You Need to Stop Loaning out Money

Hey y’all! Let’s get straight to it. 1. If you clicked this post, you probably should stop loaning out money. No one knows you better than you. 2. If you never get paid back, plus interest, you probably should stop loaning out money. When I loan out money to family, I charge $5 every week…

So I’m back to the 9 to 5

I got a new job at another gas station. This is my second one. 😔  Not too happy about this. We all know that I hate cashiering and working in retail. I’m good at it, but it’s just not what I enjoy doing. I definitely failed myself these last few months, quite miserably actually. I…

Chapter 24

Yesterday was my 24th birthday.  24th. An age that makes me nervous. The number before 25!  Which is the age I’m supposed to have “everything together”. The thought of having everything together sends me to a dark place. Only because I know I’m so far away from achieving that.  I’m reminded of how often I’ve failed…

I Have To Leave 

I have to leave my head, my heart, my body, my house, my responsibilities.  Everything is so overwhelming. Even my family is too much to bare. I wish they would leave me be. I don’t even like talking to them. 😥 Of course I love them, but damn…. My birthday is a month away and…